0 Dark 30 on Saturday

Why in the world did I wake up sooooo early on a Saturday morning? I have no clue what woke me up. I mean 4:30 a.m. on a Saturday is way to early. I don't even wake up that early during the week when I have to get up and go to work. Goodness what was my deal?

Yesterday on the program wasn't a good one for me. It started out fine but then last night I ate some pizza and fries. Now I only had one piece of pizza so I know that didn't ruin it for me but add that to the fries and a salad--well you get the picture. Not pretty! I know that once you fall off you just get up and dust yourself off then start over. Now that is easier said than done. Hopefully today will be a better day for me. I am off to get another cup of coffee.

Have a GREAT day!

Temptations

Well I have really been sticking to my program. BUT the temptations are out there. Yesterday at work we had a Celebration and there were cupcakes and chips. The cupcakes didn't bother me but the chips were calling my name. I have to be really careful as chips are my trigger. My mother-in-law use to live with us and I swear she bought a new bag of chips daily. I would really have to watch myself because I could have sat down and eaten the entire new bag each day. I often wonder if I really want the chips or if I only eat them because they're there. I have found since we are doing a brand new program this year at work that I do more self-reflection.

Work is going well. I am always running, running, and running. Someone has come to check on the computer program we are using 4 times since October. Each time that he comes to the school-he tries to touch base with me. He told me on Tuesday at a meeting that he has been to school 4 times and I am always off in a class or meeting or something. It is really great to be busy but ya know sometimes I would really love a breather. Then again I know to be effective I need to work in whatever area I am needed. My main fear is not being effective at what I do.

I am soooo jealous of my mom. She is leaving next Friday for Hawaii. She will be gone a week.

Starting Over

Why is it so hard to start over on my weightloss journey? I guess that I have just gotten to the point that I have been eating whatever I want and it has gotten out of control. I have been on WW for 6 years now and am still not at my goal. This is very frustrating to me! I guess that I have just allowed myself to slip every now and then probably more than I should. Plus I get to a certain point and then I get stuck! I am determined tomorrow-Monday to starting over and getting to where I want to be. I am going to try this on my own for a few weeks and if this doesn't work--then back to the meetings I will go. I have bought everything that I need to get back on the program so hopefully I will succeed this time.

I know that when the stress at work builds up then I begin the spiraling path of overeating. It is hard not to allow it to build up with all that is going on. I know that this is an excuse but this is when I find myself binge eating. I get sooooo feed up with people not doing what they are suppose to be doing and it aggravates me to no end. That is when I allow myself the self pity to eat. It is like a green light for me. Okay I know, I know that I know my trigger and I need to get over it but ya know it doesn't work that way for me.

Well wish me luck as I am starting over tomorrow! :-)